Lately it's been such a huge effort to even smile. Emoticons are even pretty much very uncomfortable to type in. It's even hard to post a happy post. Things are just so cold inside right now. I don't really understand why but it is. I can't even be affectionate, well I try to be but it just seems so fake. I've been up in my room more now, enjoying ( Read more... )

 Again something to get a load of my brain before I submerge myself with work and a bit of play on the side. It's impossible to focus on work when you don't really like what you're doing. Business papers really isn't my thing. So let's see. It's funny how I can think of the best blog when I'm walking down the street and there's no way to write it ( Read more... )

 Recently things have been topsy turvy so to speak. Holidays ended which sent me into a long spiral downwards to cramming each and every project that was given before the holidays. What hurts the most is, I could've done it earlier but I didn't. So I crammed, and luckily enough extensions were given yet I failed to complete the task given to me. ( Read more... )

 I've spent New Year's pretty much cooped up in this head of mine. Gradually cringing to the pain in my heart. So I'm going to curl up in the bed tonight and drown myself in thoughts and work 'til the sun rises. I need to distract myself. I think I'll go disappear for a while. I'll submerge myself with work and pass my subjects. I'll leave this ( Read more... )

 It's colder...

It shouldn't hurt this much but it does. I guess I have to knock some sense in my head now.

Cold. So cold.

...sniff...

Omg. I think I went ninja again ( Read more... )